An Old Love; Revisited

Saturday, March 31, 2007

I wasn't quite a teen, but I definitely wasn't a child when I fell in love for the first time. I can clearly remember seeing him on the TV for the first time. His rippling muscles, his attitude, the rakish tilt to his bandanna. All a girl on the verge could ever want. ~sigh~

But I had to hide my new found love from the world. I knew no one would understand. I knew I would be the brunt of a million jokes at home and at school. And so, I loved him in secret.

As the years past me by, I lost touch with him and his career. I grew up. Met a boy. Got married and had children of my own. I watched with jaded eye when I saw him on the television, smiling with a secret pride when my children gasped in awe watching him fight for justice.

Sadly I thought, he's changed - gotten older and less... mysterious.

I assumed I had finally grown up.

But today. Today I found the truth. I learnt that a girls' first love will survive anything. Today I watched him in the theatre. So large, at times his face took up the whole screen, and I felt that old familiar heat in my blood. Even my toes were tingling!

How wrong it felt, sitting there, passing Twizzlers to one child, holding a popcorn bucket for another, while my thoughts were centered on the being on screen. How wrong was it for me to be holding a toddler in my lap, my eyes closed, imagining a time and place where we could be together without societies prejudice.

How wrong was it that I left the cinema in a very, shall we say, excited state; caused from staring at my old beloveds beautiful green body face for an hour and a half.

How wrong is it, that I am still in love with him?

Still. So. Hot.

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19 Comments:

Blogger Sheila said...

wow, honey... I just don't know. Having the hots for a turtle? Hm. Can't say I completely understand. I was in love with Luke and Han (from Star Wars). At least they were people. ;)

11:00 PM, March 31, 2007  
Blogger Sheila said...

oh, and just to be my normal annoying self:

FIRST.

11:01 PM, March 31, 2007  
Blogger Bluepaintred said...

Sheila Ok shut up. there is nothing wrong with lusting after an animation. I mean its not like he's a real turtle. Hes a hero in a half shell!!

Sheila I dont care what the popular blogs tell you, but for me? It feels Good to read that "First". It makes me feel loved.

11:19 PM, March 31, 2007  
Blogger Marilyn said...

So the kids would have quarter shells? I guess it was good movie?

11:26 PM, March 31, 2007  
Blogger Bluepaintred said...

Marilyn Quatred shel and also i dont think they would be such a deep shade of green wither. maybe a pastel?

11:33 PM, March 31, 2007  
Blogger Bluepaintred said...

oh and it was a damn good move. dont listen to the reveiws, it rocked. except april looked weird. really weird, and KC jones could have cut diamonds with his uber pointed chin, but .. uhm.. the turtles were hot!

11:34 PM, March 31, 2007  
Blogger Catch said...

well...I bet you could beat him in a race! Thats exactly the way I feel about Richard Gere....

1:50 AM, April 01, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Seriously!!!!! Now I can't go and see this with the kids, cuz I'm going to get some weird porno running wild in my imagination between you and the turtle. And I think I just puked a little in my mouth!!!

RoxDar

2:38 AM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger Mr. Fabulous said...

I feel vaguely uncomfortable...

4:40 AM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger Nobody™ said...

I have never in my life watched TMNT. And I never will.

9:50 AM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger Tug said...

Well, the loving would have been slow...........

11:42 AM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger onetallmomma said...

Tingling toes....I know about tingling toes. And the object of my desire is not green or a turtle!

Very well written, my dear.

2:31 PM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger Bluepaintred said...

Catch I bet he is the only "person" I could beat too!

RoxDar Admit it, you think the TMNT are sexy too!

Mr.Fab Ahh. My job here is done then

Nobody Really? Didnt you watch them when they first came out?

Tug so true. and also, you made me spit my coffee out. thats funny

One Tall Momma ahh the wonders of lust! Its great, isnt it?

4:01 PM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger Webmiztris said...

you kinky bitch!!

4:10 PM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger Bluepaintred said...

WebMiz Why do I get the feeling you get as turned on as I did when you look at that picture?

4:40 PM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger Nobody™ said...

Nope, never watched them. I was a teenager when they came out, I was busy working. There was a TMNT video game in the arcade I worked in during college. I hated that machine.

6:21 PM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger Bluepaintred said...

Nobody Hmm. Thats intertresting. I wonder if your hate for what is a typical testoterone filled show had anything to do with your choice of dog...we should do a study

7:58 PM, April 01, 2007  
Blogger Nobody™ said...

Oh, I don't hate the show, how could I? I've never seen it.

But that god damn video game.. It played the theme song over and over and over... And it was RIGHT OUTSIDE the office door. I still hear that fucking song in my sleep.

11:02 AM, April 02, 2007  
Blogger Lynda said...

I had the TMNT game and my brother sold it. I loved those turtles!

2:10 PM, April 02, 2007  

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