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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

I'm in a happy mood today.

I woke up feeling refreshed - which rarely happens - and walked out of the bedroom to the smell of coffee brewing. Guess who remembered to turn on the coffee pot timer. Give ya one hint, - it wasn't me. And He doesn't drink coffee in the morning!

How DO people start their day without coffee, or tea, or something warm to drink? Because seriously, I sound like a frog on life support until after my first cuppa Java.

Speaking of life support, Since one of my goals in life is to live, I am going to try yet again to stop smoking. BFF Kissy tried the nicotine patch, step one (I think there are three steps?) but it made her ill so she just tossed the box aside. I asked her If I could have them, Cus I am all about being cheap, and she said yes!

This weeks' coffee night is Thursday, so I will - I dunno? Go to bed with one on? Put it on Friday AM? Whatever. My plan is to start not smoking on Friday. If it seems to be working, I am going to ignore the phone bill to pay for step two.

Uhm. Wait. My internet is on my phone bill, maybe I should ignore the power bill? Why else does the lap top have a battery?

I'm really kind of hopeful about this attempt. And the number one sign that shows it, is that I am blogging about it. In the past I have all but two attempts a secret, from everyone, including The Husband.

I tried Zyban quite a while ago, and it WORKED. After you start the pills, you have to smoke for ten or something days, and by the last day that I had to smoke, I was gagging and ill at the thought of going for the smoke. Unfortunately, the minute I stopped smoking on the pill, I got super, super ill and so I stopped the Zyban and started the smoking. My dad paid for the Zyban pills, so obviously, I told people about that attempt.

And then this past year, when Lynda helped me blog about my Moms death from Lung Cancer, I had decided to stop smoking on the tenth anniversary of her death. I told people I was trying to quit in the post on Lynda's blog, but not on mine.

That attempt didn't go to well.

This time, I feel..ready. I'm not sure how to explain. When I think about Friday and going a whole day without a smoke, I feel Excited as opposed to scared. It's like I am waiting in the line to a roller coaster. I'm tired of coughing and wondering. I'm tired of looking at my smoke wondering why am I doing this? Yet I still sit there, puffing away.

To bring this all back to the beginning, I said I am happy today, and a big part of that is realizing that the flitterflops in my tummy are from excitement, not fear. It feels really good to know that this time I am not just saying it, but am doing something about it.

I suppose I should say Wish Me Luck, but I don't think I will need it.

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28 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Will power has a lot to do with the patch. It will work if you want it too. Mind over matter right. Finding something to do during the times you usually smoke is best (other than snacking of course). Drink a bottle of water when you have a craving it does help. I know you hate it as much as I do, but add some Crystal Light or something. Call me when you feel unease or something, I'll help talk you through it. The best way is with support. I know it sounds like your quitting drinking or something, but smoking IS the hardest to quit.

RoxDar

12:13 AM, June 13, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I wonder if I could have said something a few more times....

something, something, something, something.

Oh Ya first too!!

RoxDar

12:14 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Sheila said...

When you're ready to quit, you will have no problems. And, it sounds like you're ready. There will be some struggles, but you can make it!! Promise yourself to buy something with the money you save... it'll be motivation.

12:20 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Mr. Fabulous said...

You must really have to like a frog to pay for it being on life support...

3:44 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Shelli said...

You can do it. I know you can. Just think about your little boys being without their mommy.

5:38 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Avitable said...

I only smoke after I've been on fire.

6:26 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Twisted Cinderella said...

I think any major change in our life will only happen when we are truly ready for it to happen. You sound ready. I'd be willing to bet that you do it this time!

6:30 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Blogarita said...

SG and I quit cold turkey and knew it was the only method for us, but whatever method works for you is the right one.

Best of luck!!

7:16 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Finn said...

I used the patch to quit before I got pregnant with Lil' M. I highly recommend it. The great thing was it kept me from thinking about it during the course of the day. I put it on in the morning and forgot about it. You can even sleep in it if necessary (but it will give you weird dreams!).

One other tip: I used Lemon Drop candy or Jolly Rancher Fire candy to keep my mouth busy during activities where I would normally smoke (like reading a book). Hard candies are low in calories (70 for three pieces) and keep you busy. Plus, good breath!

Please feel free to e-mail me if you need support, to bitch or a lifeline. Good luck!

8:08 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Marilyn said...

I really like the title of this post.

Hubby quit three times before it stuck. He hasn't smoked in seven years or so. It's hard but it can be done. I'll cross my eyes for you.

8:41 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger The Flip Flop Mamma! said...

They say that if you can make it 2 weeks without smoking, than you can quit altogether. It is hard, I know. I quit in '99 and I still want one every once in a while. I'll see someone smoking and think "mmmm, that looks good." I'd probably choke though. LOL. I think it's great that you want to quit, they're soo bad for you!!

8:51 AM, June 13, 2007  
Anonymous metalmom said...

Patch at night-it helps with the first craving of the morning.Remember to change location of patch or you'll get funny tan patches from the sun. Remember--each craving is only 4-6 minutes long. It's the hardest thing you'll ever do and the most important thing you'll ever do!

PS Need a buddy? I'm here-going on 2 yrs!

8:53 AM, June 13, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I proud of you girl for trying....I'm sure this time will work because YOU want it to work. You should put a picture up on the fridge or in the garage about your goal for quitting and what you are going to buy yourself with all the $$ you save.

I'm sending you good vibes!
Auntie P

9:06 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Coffee Mom said...

Good for you, I'm glad you are not giving up completely and giving it another try.
Big Daddy quit about 1 1/2 months ago, but just recently he went out drinking (which is a very rare occasion) and well that set off a trigger and he is half assed smoking again. But to get to the point he used a nicotine inhaler because the patch gave him the shakes and zyban made him sick. He has lots left so if the patch doesn't work let me know and I can give you th inhaler thingy.

Good Luck!!!

9:13 AM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Webmiztris said...

No, you DO need people to say Good Luck because it's going to be fucking hard! I've quit several times - for up to a month or more each time - and STILL went back to smoking. The cravings don't ever go away completely and I just couldn't take it. So once again, GOOD LUCK!!

11:51 AM, June 13, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good for you! It sounds like you are really ready this time. My first thought was to sing the praises of Zyban - hubby quit 8 years ago that way - best $120 I ever spent. But, I see you did that before. Use the reward techniques that came in the info with the Zyban. Define rewards for 1 week, 2 weeks, 1 month, 3 months, 6 months and 1 year of no smoking. Write them down. Post them. The money you don't spend on cigs will pay for the rewards. And - you'll be healthier! (hubby's annual bout with bronchitis is down to twice in 8 years)
Don't forget to write down several reasons why you want to quit and post those, too. To keep your 'eyes on the prize' as it were.
Maybe you should DDR when you have a craving??? (no, don't throw that ashtray at me, please....)

I hope this didn't come across too 'preachy'. It was meant to be encouraging. I wish you success!
--Peggy

12:03 PM, June 13, 2007  
Anonymous Steve said...

Honestly. Nothing can really start the day like a cup of coffee. Especially with some creamer. Blueberry Cobbler flavored. But it can be stopped. I promise.

2:13 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Tug said...

Good for you! And I'm with Dawn...

MUCH GOOD LUCK!!

2:18 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Bluepaintred said...

RoxDar I think I am ready, and with that feeling of being ready, I will get will power. Also. Phone calls will now be less than a minute long unless you are willing to say NO! Bad Blue! No smoking! every three seconds

RoxDar Also. are you home Thursday evening so I can drop of that hunk of plastic that calls itself a computer?

Sheila We wont really be saving money though. The husband has no desire to quit.

Mr.Fab Uhm. Did you catch the part where I was the frog?

Shelli Thats one of the things I panic about late at night. Them without me.

Avitable I would have thought it would have been more of a smolder what with all the hair...

Twisted Cinderella I Do feel ready. And calm.. but excited, if that makes sense

Blogarita My dad quit cold turkey. And I have tried it several times. It was a No Go for me

Finn I am a huge fan of lemon drops, mints and weird dreams. the patch , i think it the way to go for me. Except the whole allergy to adhesive, but whats a few scars on the skin compared to clean lungs, eh?

Marilyn I have lost track of the number of time sI have quit. One of the things I am looking forward to is shorted colds, and less of them!

Flip Flop First I will go one day. The next thirteen days can take care of itself!

Metal Mom Right on! I will be putting the patch under clothing becuase It is going to leave scars wherever I have it on.

Aunty Pam Can I put up a picture of a flat Iron?

Coffee Mom What about you? Quit with me? Make Big Daddy do the same. Also. pet toto for me.

WebMiz Well. Thank you then. :o)

Peggy Oh yes, Zyban works, you WILL stop smoking on it, its just i reacted badly, I still recommend it to other people thought. Also, I can go four or five or six hours without a smoke when I am busy. I get the feeling i will be DDR'ing and cleaning the house a LOT in the next week! But no phone calls. I smoke three or four smokes during a ten minute call!


Steve Blueberry cobbler coffee creamer? tell me more...

Tug Thanks sweetie. Will you make me a Jaws cake like G'daughters Dora cake when I hit, say, the one year mark?

2:38 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Sheila said...

Ya gotta be saving some kind of money, unless the hubby plans on smoking more when you quit. ;)

3:59 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Todd said...

It's all will power. Seriously. If you need the help, get the patch, but you can do this on your own.

Seriously.

5:29 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Blue Beak said...

Good Luck.

6:55 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Diesel said...

I don't know about willpower. I think you just need to believe you can do it and don't give up. Even if you slip, just keep trying. Good luck!

9:37 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Diesel said...

BTW, I've never smoked, so I could be full of sh*t. But I did stop drinking soda for a year, which was damned hard for me.

9:37 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Fantastagirl said...

I've never smoked - I tried once, about died trying to inhale...so that was the end of that.

Instead of hard candy go with a sugarless gum - easier on the teeth!

Best of Luck - My Dad has smoked for years, and has tried many times to quit...I believe it's hard to do - but I think you can do it! Your mind is made up!

9:50 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Catch said...

OH Blue...I do wish you luck! And I know you can do it....I quit one time for 4 years ...I did it by substituting a straw for a cigarette....try it..it gives you something to do with your hands.

11:09 PM, June 13, 2007  
Blogger Kentucky Girl said...

Good on you, hun! Totally the best of luck to you!

11:54 PM, June 13, 2007  
Anonymous ~ Stacy ~ said...

"...Since one of my goals in life is to live..."

[chuckle]

Have you tried 'hypno-therapy'? My hubby did and it worked for him.

I dunno. I'm not much help with this. My only addiction is blogging. Well, and chocolate. Does that count?

All the best to ya though. :)

1:57 AM, June 14, 2007  

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